The insecurity in my mind told me that somehow I became the pastor only because others said no, and without realizing it, I believed I was God\u2019s \u201cPlan \u201cB,\u201d a backup plan because \u201cPlan A\u201d didn\u2019t work out. I didn\u2019t know any other female lead pastors to look to, so I questioned every decision I made and yet tried to trust God to work out this backup plan toward His good. <\/p><\/blockquote><\/figure>\n\n\n\n
Now He is showing me that I am His Plan A for the call He has on my life. It\u2019s a crazy thought, but I am coming to know and walk in it. I have learned a few things happen when you understand that you are God\u2019s Plan A. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
First, you begin to look toward Him in a new way. If I am God\u2019s plan A, that means He put me here. I am not an afterthought. Jeremiah 29:11 tells us that He knows the plans He has for us. His plans are not for our harm, but rather to give us a hope and a future. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sometimes we read that verse and forget that the hope of that plan coming about comes from God as well. So, we must get close to Him, close enough to hear His heartbeat and recognize His voice. When things do not open up like we think they should, when they don\u2019t come as fast as we would like, being close to Him keeps us from bitterness because we are not shaken by the things of this world. We are led by Him. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Second, our boxing gloves come off. When you understand you are God\u2019s Plan A for the purposes He has for you, you do not have to fight for that position. God is the one who called you; people did not give you that call. If you are called by Him, He will open doors and close doors as He sees fit. I do not want to walk through any door that He did not open. We must be careful to guard our hearts and not let bitterness or frustration motivate us to kick doors down or throw a fit in the hallway as we wait on Him. Proverbs 4:23 says, \u201cAbove all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.\u201d Everything flows from what is in our hearts. What kind of ministry or purpose will you walk out if you get frustrated and start punching down doors? One that is grown from a place of bitterness will not speak Jesus to the nations or even our neighbors. God\u2019s timing is perfect, so we need to follow that timing to truly walk out the purposes He has for us. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Esther trusted God in the process. She was in the palace; she was queen; but she was just herself. You do not see her fighting anyone or forwarding her agenda. When she was told of the plot to kill her people, she fasted and prayed and instructed others to do so as well. She could have tried to kick down the door of the throne room, but without God\u2019s favor and timing in that moment, she would have died. She was careful to be led by God. She was obedient to His voice even in the timing. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
What I wish I would have known earlier is that we are all a little like Esther. We are all being raised up for \u201csuch a time as this.\u201d God could have put us anywhere in the timeline of the earth, and He chose now. We are God\u2019s Plan A for this place in time. We get to walk in obedience, get close to Him, and watch Him work out the good purposes He has for us. I cannot wait to see what He has in store next! <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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